What I Thought Was My Last Facebook Post : (Chapter 46)

Morning smiles and moody starts

Isn´t it funny how a dog can wake you up in the morning and smile yet if a man were to jump all over you in the morning, you would become all moody and swear at him.

So, dogs all fed, orders sorted and then Claudia messaged, “We meet today to walk the dogs.” “Yes see you at the river at 2:15pm!” I replied.

New routines and daunting starts

As discussed with Claudia my new routine was to start sorting out my home and garden after I had met TNT, and I only spent 2 hours a day looking for George.

So where do you begin with 7ft weeds, a green pool, and, and, and, and. Uuuffff it was so daunting. It was to put the kettle on and write a list of where to start, and this is exactly what I did; when I had turned the 5th page, I did seem to wilt a little bit.

My brother’s message and memories from the UK

My phone then beeped with my brother’s tune. “I understand that you won´t make fight night tomorrow night” he wrote. So funny as my day was ruined and the tears started flowing. Let me explain, my brother and I started working together in the UK selling sports flooring, gosh it really took off. So, we decided, I should do the same in Spain… yippppeee he agreed to that, I must admit that is a lie, I asked if he would help and fund me to do the same in Spain lol. Yes, that is how I am here, so we have Cannons UK and Cannons ES now.

The missed flight and the money that never came back

Way back in November my brother had called to tell me that he had booked me a flight to come to the UK as there was a ticket to go with him as a VIP to a fight night with my name on it. I was so excited.

I was missing out on such a fabulous time, yet I knew it so wouldn´t be fabulous and I would ruin his time. Thankfully money is only money; he never did get his money back.

Finding comfort in friendship

Thankfully meeting Claudia, I was able to offload my feelings and as we walked the dogs she just listened. Isn´t it great, though when friends just listen and don´t give an opinion.

As we got near to our cars Claudia suggested that Blu and Romeo come to mine in the morning and she meets TNT for me so that I can crack on with my garden, she also said that she would come around after work with dinner.

I totally agreed and we said our goodbyes, it´s funny as it´s the same with Sue and me, our hugs kind of feel false, and Claudia did the same she hugged me, and it was just the same as Sue hugging me. Maybe all 3 of us were men in a previous life.

Dinnertime chaos and a happy house

As I drove in the gates the dogs all looked at me as they all wanted their dinner, “Should we cook a feast boys and share” I said. I swear my little Steve knew exactly what I was saying, and he did kind of a little dance. When he saw me putting the oven on he even made a squeak. So, it was a feast of fish fingers and chips.

Full bellies, I put the TV on, gosh Steve was in heaven and we all huddled on the sofa. It wasn´t long before I could feel that slipping away tired feeling, so I went upstairs, cleaned my teeth and pajamas on, I went back downstairs. As I squeezed in, I think within a moment I was snoring away.

A surprise visitor and the storm to come

Once again, Kev was jumping on my head, and it took me a moment to work out what day it was… Oh Claudia is coming.

The great thing knowing that I didn´t have to meet TNT was the fact that I didn´t have to get dressed, honk honk… yes, it was Claudia. Claudia let herself in, and Blue went straight for the pool, Romeo did his normal paws in the air, and the woo woo noise and off Claudia went.

Thunder, chaos, and soggy dogs

The next thing to happen was extreme. The thunder was so loud that my windows actually vibrated; this wasn´t forecast. So, my day of gardening and all the dogs happily playing turned into a day of 6 wet, smelly dogs inside with me on the sofa; well apart from Steve, Steve doesn´t do the rain.

Thankfully by late afternoon it had stopped and if you live in Spain, you will know how quickly the weather can make you look like a total liar as by this time the sun was shining and everything was dry.

Sushi, wine, and weekend plans

Claudia walked in; wow she had arrived with the best sushi ever, I am not mad about fish, yet this was sushi that I had never tasted before. It was ridiculously good. We drank wine, well it was Friday night and we chatted away and all the dogs ran around, well apart from Rome and Steve. It actually felt like a normal evening; then it hit me, suppose because of the wine.

Posters, plans, and one last shot

Claudia pulled the moment up though by saying how her massive posters from Germany were arriving next week. She then said that next week she will pick me up and show me where we will put them and how we will do it on Saturday night, the night right before the market. We both knew we had one shot at this as the Police would make us take them down.

A painful goodbye and a quiet house

Claudia then left with Blu and Romeo, it was such a sad moment as the last time Blu and Romeo was here so was George. It was so difficult knowing that this was my new life, my new life without George. I also knew that if I wanted to keep my friends, I had to pull myself together, I knew that my friends also had problems and that it´s never always about me.

I cried so hard that night, trying to fight my thoughts and knowing that if I don´t man up, if I don´t gain control that it´s quite possible that I will lose everyone around me.

I knew that tomorrow I needed to change.

The Saturday shift and a heavy heart

Uuuffff so it was now Saturday and knowing what I needed to do sounded easy last night in my head with a few glasses of wine, yet today the thoughts weren´t there.

Fighting your emotions is so very difficult, yet this is what I did, I didn´t go out once looking for George on this Saturday, I began gardening, and I put the music on, not loud for George to hear. I kept going, yet I had only been gardening for a couple of hours and then I decided to write my last Facebook post this was at 10:21 am:

“8 WEEKS”
Villafranco, Coín (Málaga)

I can´t believe that I have been looking for George for 8 weeks, I actually feel that not only did someone take George on Sunday the 18th of February, that they actually took a part of me as well.

I have discovered the most horrific things that happen to dogs throughout this journey, and I have seen the most horrendous images that will stay with me forever.

Every day, I am being told to try and imagine that a kind person put George into that van and he is being looked after. Yet in my mind, it´s like when we all imagine winning the lottery, you can imagine but deep down, we know it´s not going to happen.

One final plea for George

For the sake of my friends and family, I now need to start the process of trying to fix myself, as this has not only affected me the strain this has put on them is unfathomable.

Could I please ask that once a week you please share a post from George’s Facebook Page:

https://www.facebook.com/buscandogeorge/

As I will never give up looking for my beautiful George, I still hope that the person took George will one day return him to me.

Continuing the search and writing the book

While waiting for George’s return, I will continue with my posters, and I will be writing a book entitled “FINDING MR GEORGE”

In the hope that I can make awareness of “Find a dog, please find their owner.”

Gratitude and reflection

I have so many people to thank, and I am quite ashamed and now embarrassed that I haven´t thanked them enough. I know how lucky I am to have them and for all the support and kindness from everyone here on Facebook. Xxx

The post that changed everything

So, post written, I messaged Kerry, Claudia, Gary, Carol, Our Julie and basically everyone to say this is my last Facebook post ever. Every reply was the same “What do you mean” everyone replied.

“I will only ever write a post saying FOUND.”

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